Oh, god...

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 15:28:20 GMT

I can't beleive how miserable I am right now. Sick as a dog that's really, really, sick, nothing to do but sit in the house (which isn't even my house) and wait for one of my roomates to come home with keys so I can go to the corner to buy a fuckin sandwhich. Stranded with no food and no entertainment. So hungry. Nothing to do. I think I'm going insane. I have a wicked fever, but can't sleep anymore. I wish I could, I'd just sleep for days and wake up and be miraculously healed. I wish I could go into just a little coma and let my body do its thing. But I can't. The tyranny of time being what it is, I am forced to be conscious even when I would choose not to be.

No escape. Really everything is ok, I just have to keep telling myself this. fever makes me weird and paranoid. I'm not crazy - I've just stumbled into an alternate reality-scape for a little while, but just keep your head and you'll get through this. In a few hours I'll be straight again - right? Oh, the nighttime is the worst. I feel like the victim of midevil torture - sleep depravation and extended position torture. I can't stay awake, I can't go to sleep, and there is a 6 hours time difference between me and anybody who gives a rat's ass. I feel like a little kid "I wanna go hooooooooome!!!!" I cry and I cry, but no one comes. On my own. Completely.

Oh dear...

Mon, 06 Oct 2008 14:57:09 GMT

Here i am again. New lj. For why? Don't ask me. I miss my friends I suppose.

freudisdead

Oh, god...

Oh dear...